you're driving me insane and I realized what I feel most feel when I'm around you is pain
that's why I wanna go away and maybe not ever see you again...
I realized we could never have a good relationship and I've always dreamt of, I love you so much I want you for only me and that's impossible to be healthy or real.
so I'm sorry, not for you, but for me. I really am sorry for keep waiting and dreaming but how can I help it if no one else has ever showed me the colors you taught me to see?
and how can I help crying when I see that I always knew it and I acted like a fool doing anything I knew would make you go away?
it has passed almost a year and you're still in my heart
and I can't tell anyone how big is my love for you because I don't think anybody has felt something like that... that might sound foolish but no one of them said they had felt the same way... but they can see in my eyes when I'm in pain or when you dazzle me... it's terrifying to see that you can love another person but I couldn't expect that you would live without love. maybe the people you love can deal with your enchantment more wisely that I did. maybe they will just feel grateful for you to love them and that's all.
maybe I just can't stop thinking about you my entire life but someday I certainly will remind of this love as the most beautiful thing I was ever able to feel. so maybe someday I'll thank you for that.

yes, he's always gonna be my 'you'.